Farewell to my Roaring 20’s

 

Tonight is the last night of my 20’s, and I’ve been thinking back over the  last decade.

I’ve had many ups and downs:

I’ve been broke

I’ve moved several times 

I’ve suffered incredible losses 

I’ve had my heart broken more than I think I’ve deserved

….But I’ve also learned a lot. I have discovered so many positive and wonderful things about myself.

I am STRONG

I am RESOURCEFUL

I am INTELLIGENT

I am INDEPENDANT

I WORK HARD

I am FIT

I am HEALTHY

I am SELF-SUFFICIENT

I am HAPPY

Along with all the highs I have experienced, I am grateful for all the lows I have endured, because they have taught me more about myself, others, and the world around me. Looking back I can see how much I have grown and developed, and I am proud of the person I am today. Without the valuable lessons of my 20’s, I would not be experiencing the happiness I do today.

Tonight I say goodbye to my 20’s with great thanks – thank you for all the sleepless nights, the fun and the lessons. Hopefully I have learned enough to enter my 30’s (a little) more wise and with (a bit) more maturity….. 30, I am ready for you! I am ready to accept all the good that I deserve, and I will be welcoming you with open arms tomorrow 🙂

With love,

Mich 🙂 xx

 

Life is a beautiful struggle

My boyfriend and I broke up yesterday. I saw this coming – the signs were all there – but never-the-less I’m hurting.

More than just a partner, I have lost my best friend. We’ve known each other for over six years, and have been close for the past four.  But he did something to me that he’d never done to me as a friend.

He lied to me.

He hid from me.

He ignored me.

We’ve already said to each other that we don’t want to lose the others friendship. But do you know what we’re doing? We’re lying to each other all over again.

The basis of friendship is mutual trust and respect. That is long gone.

More than anything I am devastated that the friendship has finally dissolved. I actually feel like a huge chunk of me, my history, part of who I AM, is actually missing.

I know I’m just hurting. I know I will get through this – I always have, and I will never give up on myself – but I am bitterly disappointed that the friendship has ended.

I can only hope that this ending is the start of a greater, and more wonderful new beginning.

If I’m honest with myself, the quote most applicable to my now defunct relationship is this, from Stephen Chbosky’s The Perks of Being a Wallflower :

“We accept the love we think we deserve”

At least I know now that I deserve better. I am ready to accept that love now.

I’m not sure if I believe in God, but if God does exist – please help me find the person who is deserving of my love. I have so much love to give. And I need someone who loves me just as much back.

Because true happiness in life is this: